My Last Wish.

If ever there comes a time that I am to leave this world, share my adventures.

If I never am able to share my story to the corners of the world, share them for me.

If at the end I seem to lose my mind, find it for me. Help me remember.

If somehow I can not speak for myself, tell him I love him. Remind him.

If upon my last breath I can not muster a simple goodbye, do not cry.

If and when I do, remember the pink in my cheeks and the love in my heart.

If you must cry, cry because our adventure together has ended.

If my adventure ends before yours,

then promise me to continue the escapade and pass on my story.

Poetry.

you just can't compete;

the sun, the galaxy, or all it's wonder.

you shine beyond something measurable.

in time and space we know of one life;

but with you, it's as though I have many.

all concepts of moment in time dissipate

and we are free of all man made restraints, such as time.

this life is merely a prequel

to the eternity

the massive always

I am granted

with you.

Date Nights Make Your Week!

Wednesday; our typical date night. I am so blessed to be with someone that values keeping the flame in a relationship going just as much as I do. We decided awhile back that we would start doing date nights one night a week. Because my lover is only off two days a week, usually Wednesday and Thursday, we decided to basically go on Wednesdays. We set an entire afternoon and evening aside for just us, outside the house doing something we like to do. Since Valentine's Day we have done dinner and a movie out once a week. In the course of time from February 14th until now, exactly a month, we have seen five movies: Beautiful Creatures, Warm Bodies, Snitch, Jack the Giant Slayer, and Oz: The Great and Powerful. We have eaten at Olive Garden, Undos (twice), Red Lobster and somewhere else but we can't remember. Anyways, the point is these date nights have been so wonderful for our relationship. I know that my love for this man is irrevocable. Just nights like these allow you to enjoy the little things you love about each other.

 

As far as a review for these movies, if anyone is interested in me posting for any particular please let me know and I will be happy to! I liked them all, some more than others. Nonetheless I still enjoy time with my sweetheart as well as indulging in a great fantasy world to help me escape my everyday life.

Speaking of everyday life, I have been in a great deal of pain lately. So nights like these really make me happy. Although it is a little exhausting to keep me going all afternoon and evening out, I still enjoy it and the medicines help me out a bit. The doctors, my mom, my man, my sister, and a few important friends have kept me sane these last few weeks. I never thought that I would be living in a world of pain. Then again I never thought I'd be living in the same town with my mom again, and that means the world to me. I also never thought I'd live through this battle. I also thought I could never have something I cherish above all, true love. And indeed I have it again, in him. 

Tonight.

Insomnia -- what a wonderful thing. Sarcasm queues. My life -- its one giant tale of folklore. Hard to believe things could actually happen like they do to me, oh but they do. I want to write a series. The best way to start is to collect each tid bit of stories and scenarios I've been in and write about it. I swear just the uncanny situations on a daily basis make you wonder who the hell is watching over me. Cause they must have gone out for lunch.

Grow Upward and Onward.

When I feel like I have nothing, I should open my eyes.
When I feel as though my eyes won't open, I should just remember.
Those who we love never truly leave us.
Our hearts are their homes so long as we remember.

Sincerity, simplicity, and sensibility.
Allow me to grow and conform.
I thank my stars and mother earth for my second chance at life.
Maybe this time around I'll do it right.
Perhaps my eyes will remain open,
and my memories keen.
For their importance surpasses all worldy things.

Dreamcatcher is an idea for a tattoo, thoughts?

Photography and such.

Photography by Alison is my passion, my pride, and even my joy. When it comes to my passions, they are many; however, nothing surpasses my love for photography. I had an engagement session today with a lovely couple. I then took some nature photos as my mom and I took a stroll around the lake at Wheeling Park, even though her ankle is broken. I wish I told her more how much these little things mean to me, especially during my time of need and great sorrow, at times.

Many days have gone by that I don't have a camera in hand. Other days I'm using my cell phone like it is attached to me to photograph every meal or every cat stretch like it's history in the making. Documenting our lives is one of the most important things I believe. Whether it is in a leather bound journal with a pencil and eraser or on an online blog with photographs; it still is unforgettable. Memories are way too precious to forget. I wish that I could write more. To your average person (better not say average American, because a lot of them don't write, or read for that matter) -- but an ordinary individual would say that I write a lot in fact. I feel as though it has been a fortnight and then some. Writing has become another passion released within me, especially through the storm that I have endured. 

 © Photography by Alison

Regaining my ambition.

There are so many things that have happened between now and the time when this all started. I have had a lot of inspiring ideas lately and I haven't done anything with them. I've been basically letting them fly straight out of me and losing them somewhere out there in the atmosphere of creativity and ideas.
Watching independent films has sort of fueled my fire for lovely thoughts and creative juices. Stay tuned as I get better things in my life will too.